What brought me to Him....

So its been almost 2 years since I wrote on this blog...quite a while...but here I am... As the title of my blog is 'AGAINST ALL ODDS' this is literally how I came 'to know HIM'...I have had many difficulties to pass, moments when I almost gave up, days when it seemed I was never going to make it and deserts that I thought I would be in forever..so what brought me to Him?!.. ANSWER: 'death' Its in our last moments on earth that everything else doesnt matter anymore, everything we conqure becomes a distant memory, the friends/ popularity we gained fades into nothing then reality hits...'I'm no longer going to be around' At 18yrs I tried to take my life...I remember that day...when I thought to myself death is better than life. I took the slow and paithful death 'pain-killer' overdose which I drank with face wash ( dont know where this idea came from). One thing I remember in that moment is how everything became quite, as I lay there waiting for the 'dose' to take my life...I stopped thinking, my brain felt heavy as I waited to feel something...I waited for death to open its doors then out of the blue I hear my name being shouted out by my mom..'CHARLOTTE, WHAT R U DOING?!?..GET OUT OF THAT ROOM NOW..DONT BE STUPID...!!!! My mothers voice put such terror inside me...I forcefully got out of bed...feeling dizzy...she told me to drink milk...in my mind I thought 'Does she know what I was doing?!' - My mom just looked at me, didnt say a word & continued ironing the clothes. She never asked questions.....and I didnt die... to be continued....